Play Freebird

 Yep, it’s true I’ve had a rough past.  

Did I brush up against some scary people?  You bet.  

Did I have a couple of near death experiences, sure I have.  

My own family even tried to kill me and that’s that.  

It doesn’t matter if you believe it or not because I know the facts, and maybe I had it coming in order to open my eyes to what it is really all about. I’m not afraid of them and they know where to find me if they want to settle the score, but they better pack a lunch.  

I’ve seen things and done things that I do not care to discuss because it’s in the past. 

Here’s the deal, God determines my future.  Not anybody else.  I’ve had two years to reflect on a lot of things and while I was driving home tonight those words continued to play through my mind over and over. God controls your future no matter what your past is.  

I’ve had to start all over from nothing and it doesn’t matter because I came from the gutter anyway.  I won’t go to the grave without saying I’ve changed everything in my life in order to gain a new perspective.

Yes, I still fail miserably on a daily basis but God controls my future providing I continue to do what I’m supposed to be doing. Currently I spend a lot of time meditating and reading the Bible, and a lot of things on psychology and recovery, not like some religious fanatic but more like a monk. I’m not here to preach to anybody but I can honestly state God delivered me from the Highway to Hell, man. 

Sometimes I still listen to heavy metal but I ain’t going to hell because god saved me.

Laugh all you want but it’s true.  I had to lose all my worldly possessions and my family to get my life back because God controls my future.  Sometimes that’s what it takes in order to climb out of the depths of despair.  Divorcing my wife was probably the best thing that could have happened to me because our relationship was toxic from its inception.  I was a happy go lucky kid from a good middle class family that became shattered when my dad died at an early age and she grew up in world of poverty, abuse and neglect.  Her being married to me elevated her status while sending me into a fatal death spiral and everyone knew it.  A few people even tried to warn me, but it’s too late to bemoan the situation because I chose to remain in a screwed up relationship hoping it would improve while self medicating my sorrows away.  

Facts are fearless baby, play freebird Im out. 

I hate typing on an iPad.